To-Do List

I did my meditations and paper for Ancient Rites this weekend. Funny how you avoid homework for days and then it turns out to be not so difficult after all. I've been considering applying for another program. I decided to ask the cards about it. The Tarot cards came out with a resounding no, at least for now. I mean I drew the Moon in the Covers position. So if I'm not clear how can I make a good decision? It's a matter of enthusiasm. There's something about beginnings that's just so exciting.

I had a really frustrating day with the embroidery today. I started a gardening design on a lime green tote bag for my mom. I'm using only white thread. Well, one of the little flower pots didn't iron-on very well. I decided to do the hardest bit first, the little flower pot. So I had to keep checking with the transfer to see where to embroider the leaves and flowers. This iron-on is more detailed than any I've done so far too. Uggh! Well, I rushed it, but I got the little flower pot done anyway. I'm faster than I used to be. I make myself do one motif at a time now. It may take a couple hours, but I make progress that way. I wonder if wanting to embroider a lot is normal. I doubt it. And do other crafts too. Hmmmmm... I'm certainly not lacking in inspiration. Probably just a phase.

What else? I've got a million things to do tomorrow. Like write poems for the April Poem-a-day challenge. Attend the poetry critique group chat and reread all our poems and read our fearless leader's epic poem and provide feedback. Plus I have a Swaptree package to mail at the PO. There are some things I've been putting off too, posting on the F&F board and posting excerpts from a chapter of Refuse to Choose. I should make my bed and empty the dishwasher too. Plus, and this is really important, I want to type up my application for peer counselor training. And I have Netflix to watch, Fringe and Cirque du Freak. I'm tired already. Hee hee!

Is this who I am? Someone who's usually happy even while complaining. Good prescription drugs I guess. Well, I'll just enjoy it for now. Who knows? Tomorrow I could be depressed out of my gourd. Anything is possible! Bye for now

A Going to Town Day

I make so many decisions according to how I feel, from what I wear to what I do. I haven't been wearing makeup lately or zip-up pants. Well, I did today because I had an appointment. I guess normal changes from year to year or season to season. I know since I've gained some weight I haven't felt as good about myself. I have all these jeans in my closet that are too small. Lame! I'm actually feeling better today, probably because I got out of the house for more than going to the PO and put on makeup and jeans, etc. I've been thinking way too much about my situation. I'm gonna have to move one of these days and find an apartment that takes kitties, not in that order. :) My dishwasher is broken too. So I actually washed some dishes by hand today. I'm kind of spoiled. I like to be as comfortable as possible on my fixed income. Maybe it's my Mars in the 4th house, but I tend to do a lot of stuff at home, plus decorating. Not into housework though, that gene didn't get passed along, the cleanfreak gene.

Today was a going to town, shopping and appointment type day. My mom always has to go like 8 places, only 6 today. Still, when I got home I took a nap. Muy exhausted. I live in the boonies, so the nearest "big" town is 20 miles away. It's always a trek, whenever we head for civilization. I live in a town without even one stoplight. We have a roundabout now though. Oh my! Lots of wildlife though. One of my cats killed a baby mole the other day. Poor little thing. It was left at the bottom of the steps by one of the kitties. The thing about days like today is I have no energy for anything else. I did do a little embroidery. My brother, Jed, was here for a couple hours using my computer. He mostly just reads news stories, weird news, or watches kitty videos. We visit. I do housework. It's nice having him over, most of the time.

I suppose I should say something about school. Mmmmmm... I think I'm too serious about school. It's one of the ways I motivate myself, like it's life or death if I turn my homework in on time. I need new ways to motivate myself, I guess. Have to work on that. All for now! bye

In the Way

Sometimes life gets in the way of studies at Nature U. Sometimes it's just my mood. Like I went to bed at 5am last night. I don't discount that I may be getting hypomanic. I doubt it will turn into full-blown mania, but I have my eye on it. I didn't get shit done today. Nothing on my list. Well, I emptied the dishwasher. I'm a Virgo and pretty organized with to-do lists and all that. But some days I just can't face all that. There are two women at school I'll call the Wyrd Sisters. One of them, Sister Alice, just started a blog too. She's a real pistol. It will be fun reading her blog. I hope she keeps it up. Just like I hope I can keep writing this blog.

More and more, the stuff I'm interested in doesn't interest my family and friends in RL. So I have this network of online friends who are interested in the same stuff I am or at least some of it, which is cool. If I knew I'd have this much fun on the computer I would have learned how to use them a long time ago instead of just a few years ago.

Our classes ended a couple weeks ago. Got an A in Runes 3. That's not even the third Runes class, more like the third introductory class where we learned the basic meanings of the Runes. The Runes are new to me so I had some trouble synthesizing them into poems. I write poetry too. I'm listening to Simon & Garfunkel, "Mrs. Robinson". We will find out what classes are offered for the Spring Quarter in February. Classes start up again in March. So I guess I'm having my Winter Vacation. Doesn't really feel like it. I guess it's all in your attitude. Where'd my positive attitude go? I think it must be in the wash. :)