A Few Poems

Here are three of my poems.  These have already been published on Poetbay, the poetry website I belong to.  They aren't the ones for the April PAD 2010 challenge, which are on Google Docs.  Once a poem is on a public webpage it's considered published and it's harder to get it published somewhere else after that.  Comments appreciated!

Ink (haiku challenge)

It’s always night here
Dark at four, this November
Even in my heart.


November 15, 2008

"Rest Stop" is an older poem of mine, from the 90s.

Rest Stop

Short, sharp, shocked.
I dyed my hair yellow again.
Not much choice.
Running out of choices.
Free form verse.
You verses me.
Down in the Columbia Gorge.
Among the shadows and sunlight.
Vomit at a rest stop.
Roman vomitarium.

A Painting

You let your guard down
Didn’t see the hunter’s orange vest
Or didn’t care
Can the mute speak?
Still you run through the woods
You should be dead
A stag with the face of a woman
countenance as mysterious as the Mona Lisa’s
Run, deer, run
As if the plague were after you
As if followed by Roman soldiers
Aching to martyr.

April 8, 2008

Happiness

I finally turned in my paper for Ancient Rites.  That unit hasn't been graded yet.  I'm just hanging out tonight.  I've been reading a book all day, "The Happiness Project".  It's really good and really interesting.  Don't know if I'll start one of those myself or not.  Seems pretty ambitious.  I talked to Jean Jeanie for an hour on the phone today.  Tomorrow we are going to one of the beach festivals.  Star might be coming out tonight, she was going to go to her parent's first.  Did a little writing today.  More reading than writing.  Got all my poems up on Google Docs for the April PAD 2010.  I'm so happy I got that done!  I try to type up all my poems, no matter how crappy they are.  I think there were 2 or 3 good ones in the bunch.  All for now.  Bye!

Mother's Day

Another busy week. I managed to reschedule my job counseling appt.s to the same day the Employment Support Group is on. I also have my dentist appt. next week on the same day. That's going to be one long day. I wonder if bad luck is catching. I wonder about stuff like that. Or good luck too. I turned in the Runes 4 homework today. I go deep when I do readings. I mean, I really have to concentrate to do these readings. I'm still learning. Mother's Day is Sunday. I didn't really get my mom anything, just some chocolate. Me and my brother are going to make her lemon bars too. I'm on a new schedule, still getting used to it. Star's computer is screwing up, so she's upset about that. Don't blame her for that. I finished writing my poems for the April PAD, just have to type them up. OK, so I'm a little late! :) Got my Divination group moved to Google Groups. It's different, you get emails when someone posts a comment. But it's not as confusing as Yahoo Groups. I could never get the hang of that one. Listening to Bob Seger on Last.FM, "Turn the Page". I like the Metallica version better, like both of them actually. I'm so glad I got my appt.s on the same day. Two days in town was really messing with me. All for today! bye

Fleas

Went to adult youth group tonight at my church. We talked about Evil. Kinda interesting, I guess. Not many people showed up tonight. Pastor is pretty cool. What else is going on? Not a whole hell of a lot. I'm really behind in writing those poems for the April PAD. I spent the morning typing up half a chapter of a book we're going through on one of my creativity websites. I posted a "baby" group for the Divination group on a creativity site. I should do the Moon sign changes, but I may wait til tomorrow when I'm more awake. General sense of unease. Where does that feeling come from? Who knows. I really liked "Let the Right One In", Swedish Vampire movie. Not too much action, but very atmospheric, cool movie. Will watch the other movie possibly tomorrow night. I deflead the cats today. They don't like it, but then they don't like scratching all the time either. Still on the fence about how I'm getting around next week and if I'm spending the night at Star's. I probably will. We'll see. All for now! bye

NING!

I don't know what I'm going to do yet about my NING site. This is my divination site, The Divine Life. It's not very active. I might just delete it. Or I might find a new home for it... Still not sure. I guess I don't have to decide today. Another site, a creativity site that I belong to, needs a new leader or co-leader. I might do that. I'll have to see.

The new drug I'm on is making me nauseous. Not a good feeling. I'm still going to the art/photography show and touring the new fire station today with Mom and Jean Jeanie. I'm supposed to make dinner tonight. I'll see how I feel.

My class didn't get cancelled! Yay! I start Runes 4 tomorrow. I did a meditation last night for Ancient Rites, but I haven't typed it up yet. I have all these poems for the April PAD challenge I have to type up. And a million other things to do. Sigh. Well, that's it for today! bye

My Whacky Week

What a week I've had! I spent most of Tuesday and Wednesday in town. I hadn't taken the bus for a long time, but that was OK. The S-curves got to me though. I'm listening to a French Pop DVD that a guy in the Employment Support Group gave me. It's not bad! The singer in the first videos is called Priscilla. I just learned that free NING networks may be a thing of the past. We'll see. With over a million social networks, I wouldn't want the whole web to be mad at me. My little network isn't active right now, but I'm not worried about it. When I have time I'll develop it more. Hmmmmm.

I have injected myself twice now with my new Diabetes drug. It didn't even hurt, just a sting. Kind of complicated process, but I'm sure I'll get used to it. Supposed to help my blood sugars, A1c levels, and maybe lose weight too. It's not insulin.

My "give a damn" button is broken. I don't care much about anything right now. I guess I'll get it together one of these days. I got some dishes done today, that's about it. I guess I'll type up some poems for the April PAD challenge. I'm getting back into writing from 9 to 10pm. So I wrote three random poems last night, not for the challenge.

I ordered some more embroidery supplies, so I can embroider on dark fabrics and a couple books too last night. I got a commission to embroider a baseball hat, so I'll be working on that in May. Shouldn't take too long. I've been working on Mom's tote bag today, keep getting distracted. Mom came by and visited for awhile today. I guess my brother has the flu. I'm making clam chowder tomorrow and chicken cacciatore on Sunday. That's all for now! Bye

To-Do List

I did my meditations and paper for Ancient Rites this weekend. Funny how you avoid homework for days and then it turns out to be not so difficult after all. I've been considering applying for another program. I decided to ask the cards about it. The Tarot cards came out with a resounding no, at least for now. I mean I drew the Moon in the Covers position. So if I'm not clear how can I make a good decision? It's a matter of enthusiasm. There's something about beginnings that's just so exciting.

I had a really frustrating day with the embroidery today. I started a gardening design on a lime green tote bag for my mom. I'm using only white thread. Well, one of the little flower pots didn't iron-on very well. I decided to do the hardest bit first, the little flower pot. So I had to keep checking with the transfer to see where to embroider the leaves and flowers. This iron-on is more detailed than any I've done so far too. Uggh! Well, I rushed it, but I got the little flower pot done anyway. I'm faster than I used to be. I make myself do one motif at a time now. It may take a couple hours, but I make progress that way. I wonder if wanting to embroider a lot is normal. I doubt it. And do other crafts too. Hmmmmm... I'm certainly not lacking in inspiration. Probably just a phase.

What else? I've got a million things to do tomorrow. Like write poems for the April Poem-a-day challenge. Attend the poetry critique group chat and reread all our poems and read our fearless leader's epic poem and provide feedback. Plus I have a Swaptree package to mail at the PO. There are some things I've been putting off too, posting on the F&F board and posting excerpts from a chapter of Refuse to Choose. I should make my bed and empty the dishwasher too. Plus, and this is really important, I want to type up my application for peer counselor training. And I have Netflix to watch, Fringe and Cirque du Freak. I'm tired already. Hee hee!

Is this who I am? Someone who's usually happy even while complaining. Good prescription drugs I guess. Well, I'll just enjoy it for now. Who knows? Tomorrow I could be depressed out of my gourd. Anything is possible! Bye for now

Friends

I haven't posted here for awhile. I ordered a new sleeping bag from Amazon. I plan to go car camping this summer with my friends and possibly my family. I heard from my friend, Penelope, yesterday. She and her hubby decided to move onto a farm. She is going to raise her own food, veggies and eggs, stuff like that. I finished a pink baseball hat with embroidered roses for Star. Jean Jeanie came over and got an extra embroidery hoop for cross-stitch and borrowed a couple crocheting books.

I've been pretty overwhelmed lately. I'm trying to figure out my new schedule, how to best approach going to town twice a week. And then today was all about my poetry group and posting the April PAD poems. I'm really tired tonight. Just thought I'd check in. bye

Happy Easter!

I'm eating my dinner in front of the computer, beans and weenies. It's really good, but I may have put too much brown sugar in it. Oh well! I saw two good movies this week, Up in the Air and Precious. I didn't like how Up in the Air ended, they left us "up in the air". Hee hee! I cried in the middle of Precious. What a powerful movie. Understatement.

Went to Olympia yesterday. Bought a nice skirt and dress pants. Still need comfy flats and maybe a jacket. This is so we don't look like total slobs when we go around to different companies. I'm talking about the Employment Support Group I'm in. Plus they are possible interview clothes.

I also went craft shopping at Joann's. Maybe I'm involved in too many crafts now. Seems like it. My life feels unbalanced. Well, not today, nothing like doing a lot of housework to make you feel balanced. Just maybe too much on the creative side of things. I even got a keyboard! It's a used Yamaha keyboard from 1993. It's really big, Jean Jeanie gave it to me. Not that I know how to play, but I can learn.

I started the April Poem a Day challenge on the 1st. I wrote my first three so far. I'm posting them to my poetry critique group's Google Document page. I had the idea to make merit badges, like in Girl Scouts for our group. We'll see if I get that done. Sometimes I type before thinking. Often.

Not a lot going on for school. I think I'll do a meditation tonight for Ancient Rites. Forgot to put meditation days on the April calendar. I've got more laundry to do. Back to it! Happy Easter everyone!

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