Anne the Conquerer

Well I drove to town today and drove around a little bit before handing the steering wheel to Star.  My Mom was along for the ride too.  I got stressed out after a bit.  I haven't had a car for about three years.  Before that I had my Dad's truck and only drove around my little town.  I was in a bad car wreck many years ago and developed a driving phobia.  I'm making great strides in getting over my phobia though.  The main reason I wanted to go to town was to have the guys at Les Schwab check the air pressure in my tires.  The guy put air in one of the tires and said the rest were OK.  Now, I used to check tires myself and all that.  It's just easier this way.  I'm totally happy with myself that I drove the 20 miles or so there and back.  I know, I know, what's the big deal?  Conquering your fears is HUGE.  Just think if there's something you've been avoiding, maybe not for years, but for awhile.  What if you actually did it?  This feels amazing.  Didn't get a whole hell of a lot of other stuff done today.  I didn't even do much shopping.  I'm listening to Dance Pop on Pandora radio. Salt n' Pepa. "Push it"  My cat wants to go outside really bad, Indy was inside all afternoon.  She's sitting on the dinner table.

A Few Poems

Here are three of my poems.  These have already been published on Poetbay, the poetry website I belong to.  They aren't the ones for the April PAD 2010 challenge, which are on Google Docs.  Once a poem is on a public webpage it's considered published and it's harder to get it published somewhere else after that.  Comments appreciated!

Ink (haiku challenge)

It’s always night here
Dark at four, this November
Even in my heart.


November 15, 2008

"Rest Stop" is an older poem of mine, from the 90s.

Rest Stop

Short, sharp, shocked.
I dyed my hair yellow again.
Not much choice.
Running out of choices.
Free form verse.
You verses me.
Down in the Columbia Gorge.
Among the shadows and sunlight.
Vomit at a rest stop.
Roman vomitarium.

A Painting

You let your guard down
Didn’t see the hunter’s orange vest
Or didn’t care
Can the mute speak?
Still you run through the woods
You should be dead
A stag with the face of a woman
countenance as mysterious as the Mona Lisa’s
Run, deer, run
As if the plague were after you
As if followed by Roman soldiers
Aching to martyr.

April 8, 2008

Happiness

I finally turned in my paper for Ancient Rites.  That unit hasn't been graded yet.  I'm just hanging out tonight.  I've been reading a book all day, "The Happiness Project".  It's really good and really interesting.  Don't know if I'll start one of those myself or not.  Seems pretty ambitious.  I talked to Jean Jeanie for an hour on the phone today.  Tomorrow we are going to one of the beach festivals.  Star might be coming out tonight, she was going to go to her parent's first.  Did a little writing today.  More reading than writing.  Got all my poems up on Google Docs for the April PAD 2010.  I'm so happy I got that done!  I try to type up all my poems, no matter how crappy they are.  I think there were 2 or 3 good ones in the bunch.  All for now.  Bye!

My Weekend

I had a vacation weekend.  I drove out to Star's apartment and we had a Smallville-a-thon.  She crocheted and I embroidered.  Then we spent Sunday with her folks, for Father's Day and her mom's birthday.  She spent the night and stayed part of Monday.  I had a NAMI meeting last night, it was uncomfortable for me.  You have to realize the dynamic of NAMI is mostly parents and their wayward (mental) kids.  That creates all sorts of communication problems.  So guess who acts out?  It's not the ones with mental illness. :)  So I didn't get much done all weekend.  I'm trying to play catch-up today.  That includes blogging.  I'm always so tired in the mornings.  I realize it's after 1pm now.  Gonna try to get a handle on that. 

bye!

Mai Poina 'Oe la'u (Not To Be Forgotten)

Butter Pecan Haagen-Dazs is so good!  Noshing on some right now.  I finished Jean Jeanie's musical themed tote bag today.  It turned out pretty good, black embroidery on a blue bag.  As far as school goes, we are all behind in Ancient Rites.  I don't feel so bad, at least I'm not the only one.  I'm turning in my meditations tonight, but still have to write the final paper for this unit.  Not much happening in Prehistory or Modern Rituals.  Nothing really.  I've been distracted lately.  A few worries.  Nothing too bad, just hard for me to concentrate. I invited my brother, Jed, to come over and play on my computer, but I'm not sure if he will or not.  He missed a Papa Murphy's pizza last night.  Ice cream's gone!  My best bud, Star, is at her niece's graduation all day today.  She had to go up north, quite a drive, with her parents.  I'm sure I'll hear about it later. I'm listening Hawaiian music from the library.  Not too bad really.  All for now!  bye

Strawberries

I'm drinking a strawberry milkshake made with fresh strawberries.  Mmmmm!  I did some embroidery tonight and finished a section of the apron I'm making.  Visited with my family today.  Just realized I forgot my Diabetes med.  Should probably take my pills as well.  In a little while.  Don't you hate it when people stop communicating with you?  You want to just shake them.  That is the situation I'm in now.  I guess I'll have to be more direct.  The funny thing is, I'm so used to it.  Different person, different situation, but still...  A typical Virgo, I practically live and breathe communication.  I don't have a lot to say tonight I guess.  I didn't do much today.  Very unmotivated.  I guess I'm just worrying about things I can't control. I did walk to the Post Office and back today.  And I got a new pair of walking shoes!  Plus two embroidery books, in the mail.  Maybe not such a bad day after all. :)  bye!

The Willendorf Venus

Here are the Goddess figurines I made for Prehistory.  I sent one to Dean Dharma and one to Coraline, a friend at school.   I kept the small red one.

Possibilities

Today I embroidered and visited with my brother. He comes over and uses my computer. Not usually a problem. I didn't do anything school-oriented today. Tomorrow I'm going into town with my mom. I'm going to check in with my doctor about the new Diabetes drug I'm taking. And go grocery shopping. And maybe go to the mall. Not much is going on this week, for once. I'm thinking of starting an embroidery blog/challenge. What should the challenge be? A certain number of embroidery pieces? I just don't know. I don't have much to write about tonight I guess. Lots to think about, just not much to write about. All for now! bye

In the Cards

I'm heating up some chicken noodle soup I made today, in the micro. I'm hungry! Mmmmmmmm! Now I can type. I finally did my overdue homework for Ancient Rites and turned it in. We had a busy day today, Star, Jed and I went to town to pick up a tent and do some grocery shopping. We also stopped for burgers. I had a caramel sundae. It was OK. I scanned a bunch of Tarot cards today to post on a friend's Tarot discussions. Am pretty tired. I hope I get tomorrow off to do absolutely nothing, but it never works out that way, does it? I think I'll trot off to bed pretty soon. All for now! bye

Some Kind of Monster

Well I deleted my NING Divination network tonight. All it took was 3 clicks and a password. Sigh. I've been listening and watching loud Metallica tonight. I've got their collected videos, really cool! I recommend Metallica The Videos 1989 - 2004. Indy was really cuddly tonight, she sat on me three times. Still haven't done my homework. Not much to say about that. It was Memorial Day yesterday. To celebrate my family barked at each other and ate fried chicken and potato salad. Dear old Dad would be proud. That's sarcasm for you. I'm a peace lover at heart. I guess I'll just leave it at that. This isn't a political blog. My politics are all over the map anyway. I'm pursuing my own spiritual path, but my politics is positively heretical. I don't fit into any camp there. A half-breed, half Conservative, half Liberal. I'm used to it though. I even vote sometimes. I haven't been doing so hot lately, but today was better. Like I told my cat, "If today's flavor doesn't suit you, just wait til tomorrow. Hopefully you'll get something you like better." All for now! bye